Here is letter two (out of five)!
I wrote this poem seven months later about this same person.
Have you ever watched the movie “500 Days of Summer” Expectations vs. Reality Scene?
Well, I felt like I was Tom in this scene:
[500 Days of Summer Trailer]
I was allowing my daydreams to filter in every shape and form because I was going back to something that is familiar (yet again). Thankfully, I am learning to discrete myself from realistic interactions verses fiction. I’ve learned “it is what it is” motto and you can’t fix what’s broken. Even if you use super glue to put it back together you can still see a crack which is visible in your eyes.
“The Boy Wearing the Well Dressed Suit”
I could say life can be so surreal.
I could say I want this boy.
I could say I feel closure, but I don’t.
The boy wearing the well dressed suit spoke to me today.
I was filled with emotions.
We conversed and it seemed so easy.
We hugged and it felt longer than five seconds.
The boy wearing the well dressed suit let me be in his arms again.
Daydreams quickly flooded my head and consumed my train of thought.
I couldn’t contain myself.
The boy wearing the well dressed suit laughed at my humor.
Even after a few years our eye contact still seemed intact.
I tried to compose myself.
The boy wearing the well dressed suit made my heart woozy.
I couldn’t eat much.
My concentration was focused on “what if?”
The boy wearing the well dressed suit changed my character.
I prayed to God first, spoke with my parents, and became silent.
The silence made me recognize God’s goal rather than my human wisdom.
The boy wearing the well dressed suit made me envision a new beginning.
He gave me a glimpse of the future.
His presence became significant.
I’ve learned that advice about love is never similar.
God plants his own story for each of us.
No love story is ever the same. The similarities are close, but not identical.
I now become silent and listening to the echoing words from the holy spirit.
I pray so deeply and become vulnerable.
What if the boy wearing the well dressed suit is becoming a man of God for me?
Coming soon | letter three: “Regaining Sight”