impressions, part II

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“A woman in her glory, a woman of beauty, is a woman who is not striving to become beautiful or worthy or enough. She knows in her quiet center where God dwells that He finds her beautiful, has deemed her worthy, and in Him, she is enough.”

Stasi Eldredge; Captivating

Good evening! Life is full of trust, laughter, dependence, self-worth and, most importantly, understanding. The photo I posted above is of me! As I said in my previous posts, I am not fond of attention, or sharing “selfies” because it shouldn’t always be focused on me and life doesn’t work that way. This photo was taken this past autumn and my brother took it for me and I love it because the photo depicts myself and my reflection of what I want in life, but the “sunset” behind me glared in my eyes as I turned away. I wasn’t focusing on the light God has given me and His timeline He has beautifully set before me.

I’ve learned about my own “black and white” image about our actions and people’s actions. How easily we are wrong when making judgment calls, or how easily we push and pull to prove our opinions matter. They do, but there is a fine line about our opinions and learning to show grace with our opinions.

I am so guilty to be the type of person who sees situations in black and white, but I also need to realize that it is not always the best scenario. Seeing things in color expands my thought process: less on my feelings, but more-so on other people. Everyone has a story and their own ways of how they are and where they are now. Some stories are similar, some are so unbelievably devastating and some are absolutely encouraging.

I’m so thankful God gives us chapters in our lives and learning from our previous mistakes. The quote I have from Stasi Eldredge is so powerful. From previous experiences in life (i.e.relationships with guys – there are other examples, but the one I’ve chosen is an easy contrast) I was so guilty to dress this type of way to get attention from a guy, be too agreeable to make sure the guy won’t leave, or my personal (sarcasm) favorite is to change who you are as a person entirely just to please someone else, and in the end you lost your self and your dignity just for some boy.

It took me quite some time to realize that my heart dwells in Jesus’ arms and He loves me unconditionally and He soothes my soul by the echoes of His murmuring and calm display of goodness and gentleness. He teaches me the common phrase of: “What.Would. Jesus. Do?” Because only God can make us whole, only God can bring heartbreak to freedom, only God can consume our bitter hearts to a boasting joy.

As my flesh gravitates to the world and the uncanny “help” of similar problems between my friends it is, obviously, an easy distraction of not praying to God and learning His actions will always be good. As my flesh dives into ridicule, comparison, jealousy and rage. I need to understand God is present He doesn’t want those sins to expand, He wants His love to expand in our hearts as we change our attitude to compliment others, appreciate our life, be joyous among the trials and learn to be joyful in spite of the pain.

I know there won’t be any way for me to change my attitude (immediately) when I receive teachable moments from God. But I do know God is good and I know God is our redeemer and He will restore gentleness and self-control before we even speak.

“To God Be the Glory!”

Do not be conformed to this world,
but be transformed by the renewal of your mind,
that by testing you may discern what is the will of God,
what is good and acceptable and perfect.
||Romans 12:2||

God has blessed us so richly in what we have, who we are surrounded with and, most importantly where we serve to help others and His home where we are spiritually fed. Keep focusing on the Light of Christ and He will dwell in our hearts for eternity.

Blessings!

 

 

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